**74Days**

Dear diary,

Just let me bitch! Everything was fine and dainty until my mum called to announced that she might not be able to come cos she can't seem to find any tickets. What follows was numerous calls between her and me ... discussing abt ways to get her hands on 2 tickets. Then i came home , sat down and thgt that i could relax with the computer in front of me , maybe i shld juz surf for a bit.. i thgt.... So i went to check my mail~~~ saw this mail from my lec informing us of our results for the human biology assignment which is 10% of our total marks. DAMN~ i really dun need another bad news to ruin my day... i really don't~ so i clicked on it and true enough ~ it was bad news~ !!!!! got a bloody 60% for my assignment which means i only managed to scrap thru it. 60% is hell lousy can ~ sian ~ feeling totally demoralised! VERY in fact~ i mean i DID put in effort~ and esther got 90%!!! juz makes me feel so lagging behind~ what makes this whole 'package' worst is the fact that i gonna prepare for my human biology practical today... cos every practical comes with a test and that test is 3.33% of the total marks~ this 3.33% is damn tough to get. It's that kinda work whereby , no matter how hard u prepare for it u'll not be sure if u'll pass the test or not since they juz simply distribute different sets of paper to u and if u're suay ~ u'll get the toughest paper and more likely than not fail it. Worst thing is that u duno what is the scope that they will test u on. Cos example they juz tell u... we're doing experiment on brain. Brain. So what abt brain? structure of brain? or what~ so broad lor~ then even if u look at the practical sheet there're a million and one thing ... it's juz impossible really! i was lucky enough to somehow or rather managed to scrap thru the first two pracs , the third one which was done 2 weeks ago is GONE CASE , it's almost as good as handing in a blank piece of paper. The experiment that we're going to do tml is gonna be worst... at least that's how i feel from reading it briefly juz now. Dun study since what u study may not even come out , study until so hard also no use right~ but dun study is going to make me feel so damn guilty... WHAT IF , what i studied comes out in the test? haiz~ this is what i call.... 'no choice' . I really detest human biology ~ Zzz ... now i've got the e-conference assignment to do ~ and that's another 20 % ... 20% ok! ~ what if i get crappy results again~ kaoz... Sian ~ and my nutrition assignment ~ dun even know if i can pass or not... stress ... stress! really feeling so stressed out now!

Anyway , mum called juz now and annouced that she'll be taking the more expensive flight , which means she's not taking the discounted package since the discounted package do not have any more tickets for going back b4 the 25th already. Now she's on the waiting list for the 23rd nov flight back to sg... and she'll only be coming here on the 10th nov~ quite late right~ 10 days after my school ends. Shld be having my exams by then already. But no choice , cos bally is coming and her exams ends only after the 7th of nov ~ so ok lor... got come better than never come. Hopefully we'll be able to go to the three worlds .

I AM FEELING SO DEMORALISED! But in spite of that~ i am still going to have to go prepare the practical now... sign.....~~~ will i even pass this module~ ........

Love
Jorine