**72Days**

Dear diary,

I am super pissed with myself , cos i can't seem to fall asleep at night. Suffering from insomia i guess... and it's pissing me off really bad. Cos i am that kinda person who can't get anything done properly without the right amount of sleep... * see i am a pig * and it gets frustrating at night when i know that i need to sleep but simply juz can't sleep ... i mean as much as i know my body is tired and all , my mind juz keeps on churning out ideas after ideas abt what i want to do... and basically juz thinking abt random stuffs , and these keeps my mind occupied i guess... then i gonna slowly shift back to the sleeping mode whereby i'll tell myself that i gonna sleep cos i am tired... sleep... sleep... u're so tired... sleep... haha... kinda stupid... but well... that's why i am getting so frustrated.

Anyhow, juz got back from school ,after skipping 2 lectures , cos i couldn't sleep well until 4am last night and i was supposed to wake up at 6 this morning for my 8 am lecture... so i skipped that lecture... knowing that i will not be able to concentrate on it anyway... at least i went to school... haha! Lotsa works to be done , as usual ~ workload's heavy. My b'day's next week! haha! weird thing is i dun feel excited at all... but hey ... i am... am i not? afterall it's going to be the big hoo-ha 21st for me. But nah ~ i am juz feeling really chill abt it , prob go for dinner with my frens , that's abt it. Esther's talking abt moving out of unilodge for our next semester... hmm.. lotsa issues to consider ... shall see then... prob going to save us more in a sense....since we're intending to rent a place near school... planning to learn driving here ... last night while trying to slp , the driving urge juz creeps up to me ... and i juz can't wait to lay my hands on the steering wheel.... to think that i told esther that i am not ready to learn driving juz a few days ago... ahhh... now u see the fickled-minded side of me... haha!


Could really be cos i've been thinking abt cars for the past few days , cos sweetie's a poor chap and he was talking abt getting a weekend car but both of us decided against it cos we thgt that the money shld be invested elsewhere.... first... at least for now... i wan him to concentrate on saving for his degree first... lolz... then he heard abt some car-sharing thingy which is quite like renting 'cept that u need to pay a membership fee of $100 and then u get cheaper rates ... something like 40 per day? something like that... as opposed to 80 per day for normal rental services... plus they provide petrol for u... hmm... well it all depends on him... it's his money anyway... BUT if i pass driving next year i can then get a supp membership from him and drive as well... LOL...since daddy's car is too huge... kinda scary... lolz... Gonna take the theory test here and then need to wait for at least 6 mths b4 i can go for the practical test.... that means i must take the theory test b4 i leave for sg so that when i get back for the next sem , i will be able to learn driving and take the test b4 i grad.... going for auto car.. i am so not a manual person...


Pizza for dinner tonight... frozen pizza that is... haha! have been eating unhealthy stuffs for most of the days since i've been here ....weird... prob ate more unhealthy stuffs when i am back in sg.... but i juz feel really unhealthy now.... fatness getting onto me... i need to run , jog and juz work it out ! burn fats burn! haha! everytime i goes to the gym , this thgt comes to me... like... BURN FATS BURN! lolz... ok... so it's kinda stupid..... ignore me...

A few ppl i managed to get in contact with brighten up my day.... talking to my sec school classmate , shijie , thou it was only a very very brief kinda exchange but it juz makes me smile.... memories... this particular guy makes me blush till my ears were red-hot cos he discovered that i got a crush on him~ O HOW VERY YESTERYEAR! LOL... having crushes and all that loads of penguins craps.... funny... haha.... and then my 'jiejie' from symrise msged me in friendster asking me how thing's getting on for me... i dun call her jiejie thou... lolz... but she calls me meimei which makes her my jiejie... technically.... cos i am juz not used to calling ppl jiejie~ i am the JIEJIE what~ haha.... but well... she msged me and makes me happy knowing that she still remembers me....*smile* ...

I've since discovered that talking to my sec school pals makes me esp happy... not that i am not happy to frens who're not from my sec school... i am ! but it's a different kinda feeling... haha..... but i dun talk to them that often.... that sense of familiarity... like u've seen each others possibly stupidest side .... u KNOW that person 'past' ... haha... the nerdest side and all...my frens sure have seen them all.... argh ~ makes me cringe sometimes when i think of these memories... lolz... so childish ... so stupid.... !

All righty, time for me to go organise my notes and revise my molecular biology mid-sem exam which is next week.... preparation underway... that includes day-dreaming and writing the all important -TO DO LIST after exams ... o and plus the TO EAT LIST as well....

Love
Jorine