Dear diary ,
the obvious reason why i haven't been updating is CLEAR! it's because of that 4 letter word called , EXAM! and now that i am free from it --- for the time being ??? So finally i have got time with u , i have been wanting to write in u so much ! i have been feeling so stressed up like , it's like i have been totally mashed , quishies , squisegy , rolled into a ball and den trying so hard to roll along with my other frens ... time haven been on my side! ! ! every single waking moments are literally spend studying , eating , or talking on the phone .... and well..... as u can guess it , studying took up like 9/10 of the total time .... and what's worst is that i can't seem to finish anything at all ! so now that it's all over , i'm feeling much more relaxed , 'cept for the occassional equations ringing in my head... think i gonna take a few days for all those to get away... it's like my brain's so used to thinking and thinking... lolz !

all right so after the exam blues , it's the graduation blues! i dun feel a least bit happy that i completed my exam , prehaps , that's y i told myself that i must treasure all the studying moments which result in me trying to be more hardworking this sem... hmm... so now the big huge question .... WHAT AM I GOING TO DO NOW ? that's beside waiting for my result and enjoying a bit ... haiz... that's a qns i so dun wanna think abt , what am i supposed to do? will i get supp? of not i will have to go look for a job and live the life of a zombie ~ argh!!!!!!!! so darn aimless!

okokok! i gonna get myself together , like dun be aimless , felt tis way too , maybe a lil better after grad from sec 4 , it's like total change of life style and all... okie ... so for now...

short term goals
- pass advance for driving
- teach tuition as a night job thingy , 1 student
- try to apply for NIE
- email vic and ask if they still need ppl ~ i feel so dumb for not agreeing to them ~ argh!!!!

long term goals
- save money so that i can go overseas to get my degree

well... that's it , that's what i hope to achieve b4 i reach 25 or 26~ argh~ so old ~ SCARY!!!! HELP!

Confused and scared
jorine