A little walk ...

Dear diary,

It's our 4th year anniversary yesterday. A little sneak into my previous diary. Let's have a little laugh ppl... What's a better time than this to reminisce?

.....bet you all already know abt this guy call bingqin frm another diary already huh...ya... so i thgt that it's kinda a sensitive topic here but i juz feel like voicing out anyway..hmm... him... juz feel that i got that little bit of feeling for him.... but we dun even know how each other look like... ( well... maybe i know.... saw his pic when i visit his homepage) so... anyway do u guyz ok so do you galz think that i am silly?the way he react to situations that he is caught in... the way he talks abt things
can't help but think that he's GREAT~!~!~!maybe great is too 'great' a word to describe him .. but he really make me take another look at him when he told me that he's looking forward to having a gf and spending time with her as in cook something together, basically do some homely things together...maybe wat he say makes me look at him on another way..but well... hmm... i dun know... think i shld keep my feeling in check at this moment. maybe shldn't even think it in this way

And so that is truly the beginning of a wonderful friendship we shared.

then as u all know already i woke up EARLY at 9.45 and took a peek at my hp... hee... 1 msg received.. ( love receiving msges) so i was thinking....hmm..let me see who's msg is it this time.....
and it's BINGQIN~!~!~!~ lalalalala...haha ... he juz msg me ... saying that he dun have any good night msg already so he'll juz wish me good night and then he went *muack* lolz... haha...

The sweet sweet part started when we got to know more abt each other cos we were basically talking on the phone almost everynight then. BUT no... not together. Haha. And it just makes me laugh and cringe at the same time when i read abt the good night msg part. Remember how there was this huge craze of cutie bearish good night msges last time? haha!

So it's the second nite i didn't talk to BQ online already , he said that he's at his fren's place playing manjong~~~~ DUD~!~!~Kinda feeling a bit disappointed here, that he ain't coming online today. But well... like wat i think i am juz acting silly?

I remember this night very very clearly! That terrible guy wasn't online when he told me that he would ... :(

Eh.... i think i can call him my boyfriend now already.... hee! Hope that everything will work out fine.

wahaha! this was actually the way i broke the 'news' to my fren!OMG! LAME! Haha! but u know how hard it is to like tell them that the both of u have got together~And soo... we got together on 26th may 2002. :D I am so glad we did.

Let's take a little sneak into the diary me and sweetie used to write in. What sweetie wrote will be in blue and what i wrote will be in red. Content tend to be rather cringish ... i really cringed when i read the first few entry. Give me a warm fuzzy cringish feel. Lolz.

this is an account opened with my girlfriend, jorine. we are a young couple, who started dating for less than a month, but we are very close, making me feel like we have been together for more then 1 year! hee... they say, a good start is the key to a good end... although i consider our start a good one, i hope we never have any ending.....

We've been dating for less than a month , and like Bing somehow, i feel as if we've been together for more than a mth . And of cos, i want to be together with him for as long as possible.

Today me and Bing stayed at home, and basically juz laze around, another one of those lazy days. Was watching World Cup in the afternoon, before i doze off and slept all the way till late evening.

Well, kind of miss school, hopefully i am going like my new modules... and when school start, my pocket money is going to start flowing in again... hahaha... guess i got to learn to save up a little more... which means less billiards... hmm... and hopefully i can save up enough money to buy myself a PS2...... well... there is too much i want.. haha... maybe money is the key to everything??? well, at least not to love... money can't buy my love for her...

Ah... how sweet~ money sure ain gonna buy my love for him! We sound so young! But hey~ we WERE young!
anyway, i feel a guilty yesterday when i just see jorine to the mrt station, and left her all alone on her journey home... thats y i feel like going to her house and accompany her.... but i dun think is possible... lol...

jorine has been ban from using fone after 12... and she said she was getting starhub subscription plan... just for the incoming free... no comments for this one...

wahaha! He can't send me home because my parents doesn't know abt our relationship yet. And i was ban from using the phone after 12 because i've been talking too much with him.

i am really so tired, hahaa, because yesterday i have been to sentosa with my frens and jorine. nice weather over there. the thing i enjoy most yesterday is the time when i watch soccer with jorine... hmm...

kind of turn me on... lol...well the drinks there are pretty expensive, better buy more drinks over there next time if we are goin again. well...

As for him saying that thing abt watching football together..... eh... haha... well... guess it was kinda cosy.......

OMG! LOL. Siao siao... i turn him on just by watching soccer with him . But i remembered that night he was wearing the checkered shirt i got for him. :D

i think, until this stage of our relationship, is really hard not to miss her n think of her... and i think we have gone to a stage where by "i love u" is not said using our mouth, but our heart...

i have come across this sentence said by a martial artist, he said:" the greatest potential in the arts of fighting is brought out by the will to protect someone u love", i guess this is true...

This Friday think he'll be coming over to my hse, cos i'll be having a BBQ with my frens.

Nothing much to update. Juz wanna tell dear that i really mean it when i say i love you.

FIRST time he came to my hse! LOL. And my mum guessed it right when she asked me if he is my bf~

it has been 18 yrs..... but i had nv ride in a ferris wheel b4!!! until last saturday, i went to the UK funfair with jorine, and we took the ride together... i was very happi that i can take the first ride in a ferris wheel with the person i love most.

I really hope that we'll be able to go thru every barrier that comes our way together .


Every barrier together ... we've crossed some... there're still some... :)

my way of cherishing her would be, wanting to spend rest of my life with her..... at least, thats something i can promise her i will do it, if she wants it...... i dun expect much from her, since im not a good guy or watever close to that... actually, i was just thinking (just thinking really, hee), if i am playing soccer, would she sit by the court and wait for me?? very curious... heee.... bing

I told him depends.... But i haven't do it... till now~ lolz!

it is a night, full of meaning, for both of us. a night of encouragement, the wind seems to whisper into our ears:"move on bravely." coming up, will be lots of bumpy and windy roads... many couples "get lost" upon reaching such roads........

Hurdles can be crossed if the both of us will hold hands together and prove to not others , but ourselves that we are meant to be...become we will not be going towards the same immediate goal anymore , but i take heart that our ulitmate goal will still be the same..

He was going into police and i was going to work...thus the content of the entry...

To pass this test, i believe that theres only 2 simple steps. 1st, always believe that u can do it, 2nd, pls have faith in me, dear. on the day i enlist, u shall shed no tears, for tears doesn't prove anything. shed it in ur heart, u may, but not on ur soft face. Wield your heart with mine, and we shall stay that way forever. believe in yourself, and believe in me. lets prepare ourself for it, and move on without turning. Courage, confidence and the power of love is just wat we need. Love you, forever..... bing

Awwwww... my sweet sweet boy... and guess what happened... did i cry ? haha...

i told myself , no i must never ever cry in front of u... right in ur sight , abt u going into Ns , it's so dumb i know... i dun wan u to see me crying and get worry and all... i really dun... but i juz crushed.... i can't... i cried... i broke a promise which i promised myself... it was too hard to control , too much to bear .... too hard .... i let u see me tearing last night , i dun mean too... i dun wan to... but it happened....

MANZ! i am such a drama mama...

im also worried that her things will be messy state, as in when we go out, i hold her things for her whenever i have a bag or pocket free... but now im not there to hold her things, hopefully she can handle it calmly, and not end up being "Messy". also, want to tell her from here that i wan her to carry a bag to put her things, so she will not forget to take, but when holding the bag, must hold it properly... beware or robbers... u nv noe.... also she must not idle in her room whole day, go exercise, go out... spend her day well.. and before signing off i wish her luck in finding her job!!!!! be back in 12 days time, and dear diary, meanwhile, pls keep her accompany!!! Love, Bing

Sweetie i love you... so much.... love chatting with u................ love doing those silly stuffs together with u.......... u put a smile on my face........................ every single time i look at u....... :) i love u

That's about it ppl... haha! just the gist of what we wrote over the years... Didn't quite continue writing in that diary after he started work. I guess both of us have kinda grow up in a way. There were hurdles and quarrels but what dun break us makes us!


Love
Jorine