.:122 Days:. Bad Day

Dear diary,

Today's a realllly bad day...almost everything that could go wrong went wrong. My practical went totally haywired and that bitch gonna bug me. Fucking go eat shit. Life here is stressful enough , really dun need her buzzing around. Really regret making the first move to ask her what her experiment results were. WRONG MOVE! Wonder why there are such selfish pigs around even the australians in the class are... not much better.

Hiaz. Everything's just not right . When i came back to my room today i saw that my hair dryer dropped from the hook and duno why ~ was turned on... duno when this happened.The whole toliet was WARM and the tiles were like hot bricks ! DAMN. SUAY can.

But sweetie brings a smile to my face. Had a good time 'leashing' out at him this afternoon. Felt better after grumbling to him about how today was so very demoralising . O yeah ! He received my b'day present for him already ! heehee! Got him ipod shuffle. :D Cause i was sooo touched when he called me and told me he wants to get a ipod for me at the IT fair some time back. But i declined and told him i dun need one since i already got his ulu brand one. Then he told me he felt bad that he gave me that ulu brand and wants to get a shuffle for me ... i could hear that he was quite disappointed when i declined . But the thing is that... after he gave me his ulu brand mp3 player he doesn't have any yet he feels bad about giving me that. So... yeah... got him shuffle. Hee. The many times of ' Thanks sweetie' makes me melt. Just feel so good knowing that my gift for him makes him happy. :D Love him to bits.

Somewhere along our conversation , he told me that he wants to discuss plans about his education with him. He told me he have given it a lot a lot of thgts and came up with 3 choices.

1. He will study part-time while serving his bond. This is the plan we have been focusing on since his poly days and is one of the major reason why he decided to sign the bond with the police. This way he will be able to save up for his education while receiving a stable income. But it also means that out of 8 lectures he can only attend 4 lectures cause of the schedule of his work. Plus time with me will be slashed .
   
2. He will study only after he finish serving his bond and start a normal 9-5 job. This way he might be able to concentrate better on his job. He hopes to get a good degree / honours not just a degree. Since lotsa ppl are graduating from SIM as well. I agree with him to some extend that he might be able to concentrate on studying better this way. Say he finish his bond when he's 25 then study for 3 years ... means he will only grad when he's abt 28. GOSH. OLD CAN. If he takes this route he better make sure he get good grades.
3. He will start studying after i settled down with a job and then try out whether he can juggle work , studies and gf. LOL. If the results turns out to be positive then he will continue. If it's negative he will take a break and postpone his studies to another 2 years later which means he will prob be serving his last year of bond.Yeah. According to him ... i am someone who needs ATTENTION if not i will go cranky on him. Quite true. LOL. But if he's going to study he's definately going to concentrate on it which means less time on me ... and i know how he's like when he focus his attention on something... just like the poly days when he will practically shut himself out... wonder how i tolerated with his attitude ... esp when he joined that website design thingy... and so... this means i will go cranky on him often which means r/s will suffer. But then again... it's not like i want to go cranky. But i know what he means. When a couple spend less time together i think that's going to somewhat affect their r/s.
   

I duno . I respect his decision. He told his mum abt it and she told him to choose his own path. He told me again and again that he WILL study if not i will not 'want' him anymore. LOL. He said something like... i will have to tolerate for a few years because i will have to date a bf who's only a dip holder. Upon hearing that... my heart kinda ached. Thou i really hope that he will get a degree , i dun like the idea of him feeling lousy for that few years. But knowing him ... i know he will somehow not feel good. Well... there's nothing i can do abt it. Not feeling good abt it can also be seen as his drive to get a degree.

Seriously... what the heck is with DEGREE! Everyone's getting one. And yes. That includes me. Rat race. Terrible rat race.

Had a long hard thgt abt whether i shld go for that one hr thurs lecture which i ALWAYS skip... hmm... think i will be going... since diana is going too. At least got someone attending
lecture with me. Friday most prob will be going to get this data entry CD then can start working already. Bleah. Got so much assignments and tuts on hand duno got time to work or not. But i want to earn money so that at least... when my parents come i dun need to spend their money. Haha.

All righty , gonna go figure out some tut qns.

Love
Jorine