Dear diary,

Got back in brisbane this morning at 10 plus ( brisbane time ) . Flight back was not too bad. Could be because i was already very tired before i board the plane. Couldn't really sleep when i really wanted to thou ... as per usual... 1 hr nap wake up.... 15 mins wake up... blahs... then when i really really wanted to sleep ... they on the lights and announced that it was time for breakfast. Still i considered it a not-too-bad flight cause i've kinda expected this to happen and because i've had worst experience.

Was trying really hard to control my tears before i board. The previous night he went to stay at my house , so had a good talk and.... i started... crying... and crying.... and... crying~ couldn't stop. Didnt know why , my mind wanted to stop but my heart wouldn't stop. damn that feeling. Maybe that's why i didn't cry at the airport. Maybe my tears already used up already. haha. It's really silly to cry lah. Cause another 5 months i will be back already. But the feeling still sucks. Afterall , i am not someone who's capable of living away from loved ones for long period of time. THIS feeling totally sucks!!! ARGH! Like NOW! Stuck in my room. Can't go out. Wonder what the rest at home is doing. Looking ard me and realised that there's nothing i feel like doing. It's like i just want to do NOTHING. Looks like i've not adjusted back to the life here. Didn't feel as bad the previous time leh. This time ard the bout of homesickness feels quite potent.

Anyway managed to clear the custom without much hassle. Immediately went to recharge my vodaphone card. Msged mum and sweetie informing them that i've reach. After that took a cab back to unilodge.Didn't even unpack then went to coles to get some groceries. Esther said that she only wants to cook dinner during weekends. So that means dinner during weekdays will have to be settled by myself. After coles , went to get calling card b4 proceeding back to our rooms. Did some minor stuffs like activating internet and blahs. Cleans the room , thou i've to admit that it's still not very clear. Didn't have the mood to clean. Homesickness + tiredness = No mood at all. Even no mood at all still got a lot to clean b4 i can sleep tonight. Clean , pack , clean , pack... until around 5 before i went to take a nap. Lying down on the bed... feeling so lonely again. Sianz. 5 months. Called sweetie but he was bz at work.

I really wonder how i managed to endure thru the 5 months during the first semester. Because u've gone thru 5 months , u expect the coming 5 months to be easier. How come i feel so terrible then...maybe it's only the beginning.... beginnings are always tougher. Luckily i came back only now. 1 more day and school will start. Hopfully that means i will start to get busy and the 5 months will whiz past.

Sweetie's still working. Should be finishing work soon. Miss him so much already. Miss my 'baby baos' so much as well. Really couldn't hold back my tears when i pasted their photo up on my noticeboard this afternoon. Before i leave for the airport , i carried er bao for a while. Didn't want to really carry them b4 i went cause i know i will sure cry. When i was waiting for sweetie to fetch me , Lata was carrying er bao . Went over to kiss him then out of the blue he look at me and stretch his hands out , waiting me to carry him. He normally dun do this. Normally i have to clap my hands then he will stretch out his hands. Really make me want to cry. Few days ago when i was carrying him he also suddenly like bend his head down and touch my face. . . then bally was like... eh... why he kiss u. haha. So cute. Miss him. Miss girl girl and the playful san bao as well. 2.5 months of seeing them everyday. Carrying them . Seeing them grow... guess by the time i get back they will be able to walk already. :)

Feeling so damn homesick now. Now that i am back in brisbane i will be updating this blog on a regular basis again. All righty , update again tml. Suddenly hoping for school to start tml. Can't wait to get busy again. Feeling so empty now. Miss u guys.

Love
Jorine