Dear diary,

I am in shut-off mode now... totally got no mood to start studying. This is getting serious... damn ~ wasted my day juz lazing ard in the room... took my human bio textbook out , flip thru a few pages... look at my lecture notes... and started to feel so damn hell helpless~ human bio is hell tough... esp the first few chapters... but i know i gonna understand it by hook or by crook. Totally ruin my intention of studying.... i mean.... first look at the content of the lecture notes already make me feel hell depressed. How the heck am i going to pass this module~i really have got no idea.... making me feel so stressed up.... and what do i do when i am stress? i start to eat... eat and eat.... i look into my fridge and saw that block of chocolate which have been lying in there since my mum was here.... i neverrrrrrr really like chocolate... but what do i do when i am stress? i took that chocolate and i started munching on it... feeling damn guilty now... cos that was... really an impluse thing... i am not suppose to eat so much chocolate!!! argh !

Went for dinner with esther and her relative.Came back at ard 8.30 , look at that human bio textbook still lying on my table.... feel a sudden surge of guilt... damn~ what have i been doing ALL day ! i haven't even started writing out my notes yet..... outta guilt... i opened that textbook.... Fainting feeling comes back all over again...anyhow i know that i gonna do it no matter what.... it's really so tough i feel like puking................~ managed to browse thru the first few chapters.... taking notes of which i've gonna study in detail and which are juz plain too chim for me to grasp. Actually thgt of juz ignoring that first few chpts and going on to pharmology instead.... what the damn hell is with neuron signals~

Starting tml. Damn sick of it .

Juz browsing those few chapters make me feel so sleepy.... irritating italian neighbour bring new girl into his room AGAIN~ lolz.... sickening.... idoit... forever changing women...

Sweetie's stuck at work.... boohoo.

Going to study tml... i promise myself i will! i will! i will! i willl! no matter how tough i will give myself a chance to try understanding again.

Love
Jorine