Dear diary,

Feeling quite pmsy now. Feeling quite hell pissed with no one in particular.

Some ppl are juz darn hell kpo. Whenever someone know that i will be going to aust to study , there are a few catogories of reactions.

(1) Really happy and concerned for u
(2) Feel that i will juz be another overseas grad reaction ( no doubt.... but at least i am trying to get a degree ~ DUD~ )

the third and hell most irritating type are those whose first qns revolves ard....

- is ur bf going with u ?
- then ur bf how ~
- bing must be very sad hor...
- what did bing say???

I can fully understand ppl who ask me these qns if they are from cat 1 BUT if they are juz asking for the sake of wanting to be kpoish. DAMN U ~ GET THE HELL OUTTA MY FACE!!!

Frankly i am quite sick of these questions, esp if they come from my relatives cos it's hard to talk to relatives abt relationships. When it comes to frens , i have my reservations as well... 'cept for those i feel comfortable or am close to. ( haha~... ppl who're willing to read this pathetic blog are ppl who're prob close to me... lolz... ) I understand that they're concern... but isn't it obvious? ? ? dun ask me stupid qns like if i will miss him or not. To my relatives , i will juz prob smile smile and change topic... i mean do u expect me to shout HELL YES~!? Dun ask me the obvious. Those kpo ppl... pls.... dun beat ard the bush.... what u wan to know is really if we will still stay together ... whether our r/s can withstand the distance barrier... these ppl can juz go eat shit cos think abt it.... how will i know...

It's hard to talk abt these type of things. I prob will be viewed as too over confident if i tell others that i am sure that we will. But if i tell others , it depends , those kpos will view it as ... prob they will not be able to withstand the distance.... What am i suppose to reply???

The truth is that me and him dun even discuss abt this issue prob cos both of us feel that it's juz a going away to study thing. Maybe the fact haven't hit us hard . But at least that's how i think we view it to be. Yes , we know that we will miss each other so much , i will prob be crying my eyes out . Yes, we both understand the phrase ' things very hard to say' very well . But so what? Right now the both of us are juz trying to keep our spirits up look forward to the stuffs ahead of us. Stuffs like....

Me getting my degree
Him getting his degree
Getting a job
ROM...... etc etc....

It's really like walking along a path... Gonna take this path.... so juz shut and think.
Stop asking the obvious. U're making urself look dumb.

Love,