Dear diary,


Everyday is going to be tough till u arrive. Received a piece of good news but it ain going to be of any use till u arrive. Wasted my day today mopping ard home.Now i feel totally wasted. Didn't go for any tuition in the end . PISSES THE HELL OUTTA ME! o well..... which means i've got 3 tuitions tml.

Friday tml and i am glad. Weekend's getting really near and i hope U are inching towards me as well. I do not fear the negative shits... i fear only not getting anywhere in the end.
Gonna sleep earlier tonight and wake up earlier tml. I am juz so lacking in vitamin M and i really hate this feeling. I hate the feeling of not knowing even more . More so than u thgt.

Dad's full body checkup report shows that his cholestrol level is way high... uric acid as well... makes me wonder abt my own... haven't been working out , haven't been taking care of myself and the things that i eat.


i am not juz that speck of dust
u dun shooo me off juz like that
dun snap ur fingers then
assume that things are fine.
cos if one day u realise that it's
not really THAT fine.
it might juz be too hell late.

The best i can give
is simply my promise
that i'll try my best
i've...
now it's all up to u .

The game is here and now
take it or leave it
i am not that easy
i hope u know it
cos if u do...
u'll know that i ain no fool...

so quit ur tiny lil games...
pack them up
wipe them clean
concentrate on the big picture instead
i ain no puppet.
ain ur muppet

take the lead and show me the way...

or....

do u need me to .... lead u instead?


Love,