Dear diary,

I duno what came over me. I'll let my senses do the talking, it's taking the lead. Everything seem so outta place, i even woke up early on a sat morning ! It's weird how i surprise myself so much these days. How much i contradict myself. Unspoken words - it does feel weird when u know how u feel but yet choose to believe a certain way because of the situation u're caught in. It's not like separating right from wrong nor is it differentiating good from bad.... it's far more confusing than that. But yet deep down, i know what's good for me , and what isn't. See how i contradict? Remember how the cartoons always show the 2 angels? one good the other bad? persuding the characters to do this or that? Right now the bad one is taking the lead. BUT i've already promised the white one that i will come back. LOLZ! i dun know what i am talking abt... NVM ~

ok... so i WAS supposed to have tuition but that fellow called and changed it to tml . Might as well, since that means i will be able to stay at home and do some revision ALONE since almost my whole family will be out . Jeff and Jelly are heading to sentosa , mum and Jovina will be heading somewhere~ haha! Dad's working... that leaves me ! ALONE at home... now i only gonna find a good spot to study ! haha ! i am pretty choosy when it comes to studying at home , usually b4 i even start i will be tired already , cos i will need to clear that area , make it as neat as possible , then bring a cup of drink , a bar of chocolate or some snacks ...etc... lolz...

I wonder when he will be coming back ... argh !

I'm getting pissed with the fact that i still gonna have tuition during this exam period BUT they're having theirs as well , so it's impossible to change dates whatsoever... which kinda spells t-r-o-u-b-l-e for me ... Guess even when he comes back , we'll not be able to go out as long as we like... since ya.... that E word will surely bother me . It's kinda stupid actually , i dun really study when i am at home until the very last min anyway... BUT when the impending thgt of exams.... comes into my mind usually 2 weeks b4 it starts, i feel guilty going out and thus hole myself up at home , pretending that i am going to study ...... notes taken out and all... turn look at the com..... think to myself... ' maybe i shld use it for juz a lil while' .... the rest they said... is history... lolz... such a routine... SHOOT ME !

But today's different - depending on how u choose to believe it. I WILL DO MY REVISION !!!!

The genting trip is.... getting on my nerves... argh !

Love,