Dear Diary,

Blazing sun on a sat afternoon, I am chilling at home , with almost nothing to do... intended to clear my closelet and my table , but things are still left the way they were before i graduated from poly. Starting a new phrase of my life , heading back to studying @ MDIS - biz management ... looking forward to it... quitted my job at symrise on wednesday , the manager was so darn shocked ...lolz... but ya... it's all over and it's time for me to concentrate on this other path i have decided to take. From food technology to biz management , didn't see it coming at all , some frens are shocked at my decision to cross over , truth is i am juz as shock. But after a period of chaos and deep thinking , the decision was made... doubts everywhere , haunting me... i must preserve right to the end ... no time to look back anymore , dreams slashed , cruel reality of life surfaced , time to shape my destiny ...

I am really glad that this decision was finally made , that period of decision making was hell . My undecisive nature , the part of me that struggeled to come to face the reality that my dreams are slashed... was all so overwhealing . SIM here i come , but not b4 i attend the half year of dip at mdis ... ya.. many of them has been asking me why i wanna waste my time to study the dip since i already got a dip... tired of explaining, juz shut ur mouth up if u disagree with me , there's nothing wrong with me signing up for this dip , i juz wanna make sure that i got at least a foundation , nevermind if it's juz a tiny weeny bit .... shoo off... u're so unwelcomed in my life ... i dun need you at all... ya.. i'e been bombared by ppl who question too much , at the end of the day it's me who's going to study not you.................. enough said.

Bing has been telling me that i shld stand up to my decision , if i feel that unprepared to juz immediately get a degree from SIM it's ok to go to MDIS first , even he thinks that MDIS dip is 'no use' but ya...he's still supportive.. that's him... he respects my decision ... and i am thankful for that. He has been the one who has been really encouraging me to be firm in my decision and not let what other say affect what i think ... how i feel...

Monday's the start of the first sem , but i am still unsure where the hell is byland building at middle road... getting myself all geared up to study... it will be non-stop studying mode for me , no holis, the time table's out... :D

Friday was fun fun fun ,chilled out with aud at west coast... been so long... toolong... since we last chilled , let's do it again.. nice talking to her... laugh my heart out at mac... esp abt that horny pig~ gross to max... If nothing goes wrong will be meeting her next thurs for studying time... :D

Off to clear my table...

Luv
Jorine