Dear Diary,
Feeling very bad these few days , 'cept for today ... have been working temp at takasago, a flavour and fragrant hse at pandan loop , they're like competitors with symrise, my previous itp company , so from the beginning dun really feel good to work there already... lolz... this is another weakness in me... always using the emotional side rather then the practical side when looking at things, well... anyway, started working there on tuesday, then they've got this super duper irritating intern , who's like my JUNIOR named suqi~ she's one hell of a bird-brain bitch~ gosh! dun even want to start talking abt her.. she juz pisses the hell outta me ... so there goes my wish for a 'pleasant working environment ' at takasago ... good thing is that i will not be seeing her anymore on monday when i go back to work , cos she's going back to sch , would like to curse her , really hope that that pea brain get the most disgusting third year project like giant meal worm , or get like those super bo chap lecturers to be her supervisor~ and with the way she do things~ there's no doubt that she definately will not get along well with her grp mates! curse her! get like grade D~ argh! totally spoilt my wk~~~ well... anyway on friday i didn't went to work , cos i took leave to go for 2 interviews, too bad... didn't get to like kick her butt ~ nono...on second thgts , i dun wanna like dirty my shoes ... every single part of her is ozzing out with poison ~

On friday , i went of for 2 interviews , early in the morning went to wyeth , a really huge company at tuas , really interested in the position that they offered , which is like a QC position but more to admin kinda work , but from the looks of it the chances of getting in is quite tiny , yes... tiny~ claris went to the interview too.. but she's more interested in the QA position... hope to hear from them soon! then saw another schmate from food tech , jingyi ... she's also more interested in the QA position... god bless... so many ppl looking for work now... then after that went to claris's hse to like eat lunch and then rushed to boon lay again , cos claris got another interview at ADM , it's also a big company , and guess what~ she got the job!!!!!! great offer and very lucky of her... but she's really confused right now , cos she's like very interested in the wyeth job as well and she hope to get into wyeth... hope she made the right decision , dun be like me!~ made the wrong one and am so regreting now~ ... haiz................................ that time when linda asked me if i want the job at symrise i shld have like agreed straight away! sianz~ that's like very very very lucky of me to get the offer from them~ but i rejected them.... was like.. having this delimma of going to aust to get my degree or to start to work , and then my parents kinda like told me that they will agree to let me to go to aust and now~~~~~~ they kinda went back on their words, and worst still they're so pestering me to get a job... totally pisses me of like BIG TIME! already told them that time that, the symrise job is really a good offer cos like the pay's quite good too.. and for all i know , linda worked there for 5 years and she got like 4000 plus for her pay which is a lot considering that she's only a diploma holder~ and the worst thing is that now every single post that i apply for are mostly QC lab tech~ sucks! really feel that it's a torture to work in QC dept , dun like it at all manz~~~~ thinking that i would most likely look for a job as admin staff or whatever in a food company.... admin work to me is far better than QC at least that's how i feel NOW... lolz.. cos i have like no experience in admin stuffs too! haha!

Anyway i went to symrise for a interview on friday too ....... another QC position but it's not flavour it's fragrant QC... which to me sucks too... QCQCQC! argh! bad ... anyway i went to look for linda and vic and of cos er mei too... not very close to er mei but will never forget that she taught me how to like.. do milk stuffs... haha.... linda and vic taught me a lot of things that time too.... when i walked into the building with claris , there's this sense of belonging ... and then also this sense of.... i duno how to describe it... it's like... bring back lotsa memories... still remember every morning i would like alight from the company bus then go and punch my time card... then i would walked pass uncle terence spray drying room, and up the stairs to the table whenby i would look and decided on what i wanna eat for the day... then walk to the berverage lab... well.. i walked into the lab on friday with a totally difference feeling... so... someone shouted for linda.... 'linda someone looking for u'... then linda looked up... stare at me for a moment and then... jorine!!!!! like u can really feel that she's very suprised to see me...and then she looked at me and claris... told us that we changed! lolz... prettier i guess! LOLZ!!!! then she introduced to us the intern working for them, and she said this to her.. ' this is the jorine we always talk abt lor... now u know who we're talking abt' haiz.... from this sentence... can feel a lot... i can also feel that they misses me... and yes... i miss working for them too... then we chatted but there wasn't a lot of time cos claris needed to like go for another interview.... well... vic was on leave that day.... didn't get to see her... but frankly... linda's the one i really misses... u know... she really connected with me... and she even told me during my attachment ' everytime i look at u , u remind me of myself when i was ur age' lolz! think it's cos of our character... quite similar... the first time when i saw her , i didn't like her at all... i thgt that she's very proud and dun really talk... lolz... and yes.. when she was teaching me that time... she was really not very nice... but after that.......like a while.... 3 days later??? felt a connection with her... haha! then enjoyed myself a lot in the lab too... the first time i really feel like going to work.. and really wanna make the lab clean ... i was feeling really emotional when i was leaving... the lab on friday ... almost cried... lolz1 silly right~~~ but that's juz how attached i was to the lab... then linda told me that she will look out for jobs for me ... see if suppliers got jobs or not... sweet linda... how nice.... then i told the chocolate out from my bag... haha... gave it to her.. and she was like... huh.. u still buy this... it's time for u to save money ... dun anyhow spend... but u know.. she didn't like... kick up a fuss... like some ppl would have like... she juz told me like... nicely.. then u can feel that she's really concerned ... hmm... walked outta symrise... feeling bad... regretted my choice EVEN more... a lot.. and kinda really feel like blaming my parents for telling me that they will agree to send me to aust to study but didn't.. and that i gave up such a good job... such kinda jobs are really juz so hardto find... guess they will never understand... they will juz like keep on pestering me to get a job.. i dun care .... i will take my own stand now... like... they're not always right.. take the symrise job and study in aust thingy for an example.. they juz ruin my chance of working with great ppl ... and of cos... a great company.... no shift no nothing... transport and 5 days work week... how to find ....

then after that went back to change and went to dear's place... today meet up with him also.. we went to watch ard the world in 80 days... quite a nice show... in fact it's really funny... enjoyed my time with him... always do... feel so close to him... oh ya! and then after that we went for dinner at macs... guess what.... there was no other seats... then we gonna like sit at this tiny table .. those that only allow 2 person to dine on... so dear went to get the food and then..... he put the drinks on the table... and........................... SPLASH! it fall down~ lolz~ fall off the table... and splash all over the place.. can see that he immdiately sian half.. lolz.. so i went and told the crew staff.. that we spilled the drinks... then she came over to clean the place... lolz.. and....... after a while... guess what... she came over and gave us another cuppa lemon tea!!! so nice of her... NICE!!!! then was this bunch of noisey and ill behaved kids... wearing sch uniform and they really did make a nusiance of themselves... can't stand.. towards the end when we were abt to leave.. they started to blow ice using straws at each other ... and... it's like.. ACROSS the table.. how stupid! then when i went to the washroom , i stared at them... they continued... ~ and so... b4 we leave i went to the manager and told her... there are some kids in uniform making a nusiance of themselves at the upper floor , they're like.. blowing ice at each other across tables... WAHAHAHA!b serve them right! hope that the manager shoo them outta the place.. sickening...

well... that's abt it... tired day.. zzzz

Love
Jorine