Dear diary ,
Today's a mixed up kinda day , dear's going into army soon... very soon... tml .... he's going in at 9 AM . Not gonna send him to the police academy thou , dun wanna let him see me tearing... dumb tearing ... yes i know... but i still will... emotional attachment is there ... well.. anyway had a fun day with dear juz now , we juz wanted to do something that's really simple , like what we'll always do... ya know.. dear's not the kinda person who think that going into Ns is any big hooha! like he can't understand y some of his frens will like get so excited and like gather everyone b4 they go in or watever... that's juz his style , i think it's ok thou... well... whatever it is , we went to cwp~ watched this lame cartoon called HOME ON RANGE , and then proceeded home , oya ! we also took the lovegety thingy , too cute! Well, after that got home and juz chilled , until dear's dad called and told him that quite a lot of ppl'sat his hse waiting for him.... he was quite taken aback too! lolz... okie... so it was time for him to leave and i will not be seeing him for at least 10 days.... haiz~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ okie.... sad moment... anyway he held my hands and like... told me to be strong and blahs... dun even wanna talk in details abt it... gonna make me cry~ i am sooooo emotional... okie..

Going to keep myself ocuppied this week... will miss him so much.....................................................................................missing him is an understatement to begin with... ok.. watever... i am so pulled apart
lolz... sometimes i think i gonna think with my head and not let my heart rule everything... still can't find any work... it's getting on my nerves~ can't stand this rotting life anymore~

Love
jorine