time check : 11.18 am
i am soooooooo excited , nervous , scare , anxious , tipsy.. hoppily~ going for my first prom night later... ya.. it's going to be the first time i will be attending prom and ya...i am 19! so first prom at 19~ laugh at me IF u DARE! will be wearing a sliverish grey tube dress and still wondering if i shld wear the shawl ... :( will see how the situation goes... didn't get any dangling earrings , wanted to but didn't... not a problem thou... so will be meeting claris and lizhen first to get manicure done at citylink later.... haha! FIRST time doing manicure too... pedicure? dun think i have the nails to do ~ dame it! my toe nails look so freakish ! luckily my dress's long 'nuff to cover 'em up... it's kinda like... toes with no nails... ( get the pic? ) lolz..

Last night was excited until can't get to sleep , issit excitment? not too sure... it's like i am scare... that i will suddenly look so weird or things will not go smoothly... haha... i feel silly ...~ can't get to sleep because of that~ now what! ~! well... to think of it... it's not the only thing that's on my mind last night... suddenly a million things popped into my mind...like .... esp abt my grandparents relationship with my parents esp my dad ya... and i am like wondering... if dad will ever forgive grandpa... they're juz like enemies... yet enemies dun eat together on the same round table do they ? and yesterday ... looking at my grandmother , i feel so mixed... she's like old..... dun look that old thou , but old nonetheless! lolz... okie... but hey ~ i was sitting beside her yesterday , and then ... i look at her as she talked to me ... asking me to put my pic as her wallpaper in her hp .... i was thinking to myself... does she really like to the extend that she wants to put my pic as her hp wallpaper? can't blame me for the doubt, she ill-treated me even b4 i could talk properly... she was the one who treated me like TRASH .... and now she's doing all these? praising to others that her grand-daughter's so pretty ~ blahs~ give me a break ya!

Time's almost up now... going to meet lizhen at semb ... will update abt the prom soon.. hope everything will go smoothhhhhhhhhhly...

Love
jorine