feeling dame lousy........ :( x 100 - 12/8/2001

as the entry title suggust i'm feeling dame lousy..... today juz ain't my day! woke up and feel really restless already....... watever that i do juz dun seem rite to me..... did

NOTHING the whole day except.....buming ard...talking to jinwei....... and sleeping...... feel that my life needs a major revolution ......SOON......

aud's words have been hanging in my head.... but thinking abt the whole matter juz make me SICK ------REALLY SICK........ i mean ..... the whole thingy sucks BIG

TIME........ wat the heck !!!!!!!!!.......y shld i get myself so bothered by his actions...... his reactions and WATEVER...... he's issit some kinda hunk......dude.....Guess watever

that i do ...it juz wun be the same ever ever ever again ........ and i know that no one is to be blamed .... I am !!! he did nothing wrong it's was me all along ....... and now that

i regret it's juz tooooooooo...... dame late...... regreting will get me nowwhere....thinking abt it will get me nowwhere....doing it will make me think even more....which will get me

nowhere........ shouldn't have let it get so dragggggggggggggggyyyyyyyyy ......................................... in the first place..............

really anxious about the ap chem result also ........ hiaz..... i REALLY REALLY REALLY wan sch to start soon soon soon ........ pls start soon soon soon ..... really need something

to occupy my mind..... NOW!

wat a lousy day!!!!!!!!! :(

not so much love anymore
jorine
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